Progress

Yay...Onederland has come and stayed since last time I blogged. I have gotten into the 100s and have made it down to 194. I am very excited to have passed up that milestone and I am also so close to several others. In 3 more pounds I will be down 30 pounds. In 5 more pounds I will be out of the 190s. In 14 more pounds I will be at my halfway point (40 down, 40 to go). Although I have had some plateaus I am feeling very successful on this journey.

Babywise...I am getting closer and closer to completing my hours for my MFT license. I have approximately 100 hours left and I have officially ordered my testing study materials for my licensing exam. Why is this important??? As soon as I am licensed we will be getting on the baby making train. YAY!!! I am so excited! I feels as though I have been going through all of life with the goal of being a parent and now it is so close I can taste it.

I have been doing a lot of thinking about all I have waited through before trying for a baby. I really feel that the reason I have waited so long is that I really want to be the best possible parent that I can be. To me this means setting the stage as best I can beforehand. I love my parents very much...however, they could have done A LOT better job making things right before deciding to have me. I feel that I want to avoid as much pain in my future children's lives as possible. I cant prevent every heartache, but I can give them very loving and responsible parents, some financial security, and the best start possible by being very knowledgeable about pregnancy and child development. I feel that I chose the perfect daddy for them and he and I have gotten our careers established to support a family. We also love each other very much which is something my own parents lacked.

It makes me sad that this was not done for me. However, it makes me proud to know that I learned from their mistakes and that I will not allow that to happen for my babies.